Oh the Shame

I keep trying at this whole blogging thing thinking that maybe I will get the hang of it soon. I refuse to give up, because I have faith that I will eventually get it together. Just like with my many good starts to several books, I will conquer the many raging battles within! I can do this, at least that is what I will keep telling myself until I make a true believer out of me. I need more self-discipline and I plan to find every bit of it soon. In January, I said that 2014 and I still fully intend to make it happen.

I have been avoiding my laptop like it's the plague and out to kill me lately because the thought of sitting down to write scares the hell out of me. I want so bad for my dreams to come true. I struggle daily with the many urges to write, but I have managed to talk myself into the shadows of my mind. I find just about anything and everything to do besides put words out. No matter how hard I try, I manage to confuse myself with the plot lines to the point of no return. I am determined to quit discouraging myself and I believe that blogging will be a great start for me to get out the rut that I've been buried in.

So that being said, here I sit again at my desk typing away. I've always been a strong individual and refuse to let a little bit of self loathing get in the way of my future. It's time for me to get a serious game plan together and start making it happen again. This is me shouting from a mountain top that I will overcome and achieve the goals that I have set for myself. I NEED this to happen just like I need the air that I breathe.